God is so faithful


When I married Tim I knew that he wanted to move to South Korea.  I kept thinking he would change his mind (or at least change the continent…. because I wanted to go to Africa). I told him that I was open to the idea but I couldn’t make any promises until I went there on vacation first.

He started really wanting to go about three years ago. In February of 2012, I was at a Catch the Fire conference and I felt like God said that our next move would be Korea. We had already used our tax return to buy plane tickets there for a vacation. I was excited about Korea but felt like it was still a few years away.

We went to South Korea in September that year and it was great. It felt really homey, like we were still in America. I enjoyed taking the train everywhere and how kind the people were. I thought Seoul was really cool how it was a big city like New York, but was surrounded by mountains. But my favorite part of that trip was my husband! Yes, I enjoyed seeing new things and spending time with him. But Tim is a completely different person in Korea! First of all, his allergies are almost a nonissue there so he could breathe easy and had lots of energy. But he was just really happy and outgoing. He knew how to get around, made friends easily, and even picked up the language quickly.

Needless to say, by the time we got home, we were both ready to go back. So Tim immediately started applying for jobs in South Korea. I knew that he wanted to go so bad and did not want him to get distracted from God’s best. So I began to pray that he would only be offered the job that would be God’s best for him.

In December of that year, I was laid off from my job at the church. The elders felt that we were headed to Korea soon. I felt like God told me not to look for a new job. Tim and I both hoped that meant we were headed to Korea. A week later, we found out we were pregnant with Clarissa.

Tim kept applying for jobs in Korea. Clarissa was born in August. I got a call in October offering me a part time teaching position at a school I love. I didn’t even apply. They just wanted me. So I started living my dream of living in the neighborhood that I teach. It’s only fifteen hours per week so I still feel like a stay at home mom, which is important to me. I make enough that we break even financially.

God always works things together for our good. Even things that don’t make sense or seem really hard at the time. Really, getting laid off was great for me. It definitely stretched my faith. I really had to trust God to provide for us. A lot of the time, He used other people to do it. We are so blessed to have my family here. My mom watches Clarissa while I work.

Shortly after I lost my job, we switched churches. I was blessed to be able to attend Wave Women and started attending a mom’s group where I have made friends with some amazing women who have encouraged and blessed me more than I thought was possible. Neither of those things would have happened if I had been working full time. We also would never have found forefront.

Tim has been applying for jobs in South Korea for two years now with no luck. I know it is because none of the jobs have been God’s best for Tim. The week of my birthday Tim got a phone call from a recruiter for McCauley Brown, a defense contractor. He was really excited about Tim’s resume and said he had a few jobs for Tim to apply for. A week later, he called to offer Tim a job. He never even had to interview. The job is in Suffolk so we don’t have to move. The job description is something Tim is excited about. The commute is easier. And the pay is better. And… This company has contracts all over the world, including South Korea, so there is potential to transfer later.

We would not have chosen to look in this direction, but I believe that this is God’s best for Tim and our family right now. This is the only job he has been offered, which has been an answer to prayer.

He has been at his new job for a week. Already he likes the people he is working with and feels like a weight has been lifted, as if he was being stifled by the previous job. God is so good. I do still believe that our next move will be South Korea, it just isn’t time yet.

I love it when God answers prayers!


Today has been interesting.  And exciting.  And great.

I feel like we,  as a family,  have been in a holding pattern for a bit.  Almost two years actually. 

I have had some very frustrating moments lately just waiting.  And wondering.  I have other moments of being completely content.  I love my husband and my daughter,  even my crazy dog.  We have a beautiful little life. I enjoy being a mostly stay at home mom.  Life is good.

But we are dreamers.  Especially my husband!  And boy are some of our dreams big!  Asia.  Debt free living so we can be REALLY generous.  We want to see people healed.  Witness crazy miracles.  And who knows what Clarissa’s calling is…

God has spoken truth and planted some pretty big dreams. And so sometimes I get frustrated in the waiting.  I like to have my life planned just so.  I want to know how things will happen.  And when.  I am a list person. But I am not in charge.  So I don’t get to choose my miracles or when blessings come.

This morning I spent a while just talking to God and trying to remember and process some of the things He has said before.  At the end of it,  I didn’t have a ton of answers.  But I had a new perspective and total peace.

I just went about my day.  And then this afternoon,  there was a flood of answers.  Breakthrough as far as Tim’s job is concerned.  The beginning of what I am believing will be financial breakthrough for us.  Answers about if we are moving (nope.  You are stuck with us for at least another year).

I feel like when I finally get to the place where I just let go and stop stressing about something is when God really begins to do amazing things.  So I wonder,  if I could just live in that place,  if I would see the cool things that God is doing ALL the time.  Because even when things don’t happen the way I want them to or when,  I know that God is still moving on my behalf.